Testimony Tuesday

Tuesday, December 18, 2012


There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.” (Joshua 1:5)

BACK, BUT NOT FOR LONG

It’s that time of year where many reflect on the previous months. I usually don’t find myself looking back often, but this past week while I was busy doing my daily duties, the Holy Spirit pricked my heart to pause and reflect. I ignored the prick for about two seconds before I realized that there was no way I was getting out of “looking back.” I paused, prayed, and then it happened, I started reflecting on this past year.

My heart was beating fast as I recalled the difficulties of this past year. Why are difficulties usually the first thing we reflect on? I glanced back and saw my financial struggles that left my faith broken, the embarrassing breakup that left my heart broken, the hardship in connecting with a new church family that left my spirit broken, the sadness in losing a close friend due to evils of others that left my soul broken.

I couldn’t understand for the life of me why the Holy Spirit pricked my heart to look back when all that did was remind me of my brokenness.

I was heavy, angry, and confused. Then the scripture found in Joshua 1:5 where God says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” came to my remembrance. The heaviness I was feeling instantly left. At that moment, it was like I could see satan walking away, bowing his head in sadness because he couldn’t keep me in a state of despair.

I meditated on that scripture, and I realized that God’s call for me to look back was not to remind me of my brokenness, but to assure me that He was always right there with me. I’m still standing! I’m still praising! I’m still worshipping! I got a testimony!

So I got motivated and began writing a list of all the good that God has done for me:

How God provided for me and my family during financial difficulties
How God delivered me from a relationship that was destroying my relationship with Him
How God sent me to a new church home to grow my faith
How even in tragedy, God brings comfort

Have you ever just paused to say, Thank You Lord? It was at that moment that I started thanking God for everything, you know the stuff that usually wouldn’t make the list:

Thank you Lord for hardships
Thank you Lord for pain
Thank you Lord for transitions
Thank you Lord for let downs
Thank you Lord for spiritual persecution

I know you’re asking, “Why thank God for those ugly things?” I thank God for those not-so-good things because I trust Him to deliver on His promises. Promises like the ones found in 2 Corinthians 4:8-9, “We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.”

What I realized in that moment is that God has given me a testimony; not one to conceal, but one to reveal; not one to suppress, but one to share; not one of despair, but one that encourages others like you. I do not know the degree of your test right now. I may never understand the hardships you bear, but I am assured that if you stay faithful to God, your testimony is on it’s way; and He is always there!

It’s one thing to experience brokenness, but what I’ve learned is that God will NEVER leave me broken! That’s not the God I serve! I serve a God that heals, leads, protects, provides, and comforts!

So yes, I looked back, but I didn’t stay long! I stayed long enough to thank God for the journey and to surrender my future to Him! Press forward with expectancy of what God will do in your life! Your testimony was never meant to break you!

~Shanita R. Jones~


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2 comments

  1. Thank you. This was very much needed today.

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    1. K.D.,

      You are very welcome! God always knows the message that His children need. If there are specific ways we can pray for you, please let us know. We would love to take your request to the throne of God!

      Thanks for your support and encouragement to this women's ministry!

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